Instincts??

Here it is, my 16 week photo (will probably wait until 18 weeks to post another)!

So I have decided not to do the laundry list this week because I feel like that can get a little boring.  I am now 17 weeks and am starting to get really nervous about everything! I know I should not be anxious (Matthew 6:34) but am starting to freak about not knowing what to expect, how to be a mommy, etc.  I am feeling unprepared, like I should read every book in the library to figure out what to do with a baby.  Zach, on the other hand is so laid back and carefree, he keeps reassuring me that "my mothering instincts will kick in when the baby gets here".  Thanks, but WHAT mothering instinct, do I even have them?

Do not get me wrong, I have wanted to be a "mommy" since Kindergarten.  There is even video evidence of the teacher asking everyone what they wanted to be when they grow up, everyone said doctor, pilot, vet, lawyer, etc. My answer...a mommy. And, there is nothing more that I want to be, I am just feeling overwhelmed by all the diaper genie, layettes, formulas... It is never ending!

Please someone (besides my husband) tell me that it will come to me when the baby gets here? Am I the only one that is scared of not knowing what to do??!!


On a less freaked out note, I wanted to reveal the Gender of the baby to my family in a fun way. Since our families are split up a little, I was trying to think of a fun way to do it so that they all dont have to find out at one time. Thought of delivering cupcakes with the color (blue or pink) on the inside so each family can find out together. However, I want some other ideas. Anyone done this and have a great idea for a surprise reveal to the family??